Yesterday I boldly resigned from my job, effective October 1st! It was a pretty nerve racking conversation to have. I didn't enjoy knowing that I would create a little turbulence for my boss and the organization, but it was something I needed to do. I have been looking for jobs and being too scared to take care of myself. I had a million excuses for staying, but what it came down to was: a force larger than the little Kari compelled me. A mini culmination occurred. It was the right thing to do. I need to use my powers for something else other than arts administration, me thinks.

Luckily I have the support of a few people who see this as a positive thing instead of me going crazy...though either could potentially be true of course, as always. ;) 

Where will I go from here? I sure as heck don't know, but I am a lot more excited right now with the thought of moving on to something else in a month. Do I regret getting a degree in Music Business? NO! Not one bit. I learned and am still learning on every conceivable level...which may only be one...but anyway, the point is, I don't regret things. That is ridiculous. I love them and learn from them. When the loving changes, I change directions. So that is what happened. It feels so good to let go.

Pretty exciting huh? Anyone hiring? :)

I was searching around the internets in a somewhat obbsessive manner for interviews with Daniel Pinchbeck. I found the interview on pop occulture. (We could talk about that for a long time -- later, I promise!)  Then I found a site with with Daniel Pinchbeck mentioning David Bohm's holographic universe. 

Um -- I was just noticing recently how something about both Bohm and Pinchbeck's work and writing really excites me. Yes! That'll be fun to investigate more I'm sure. You'll see!

Is it the visionary spirit I feel coming through their work that excites me? Or that they are speaking from their heart experience? Or is it something specific that ties their work together? Possibly that both Bohm and Pinchbeck encourage us to not accept their or even our own ideas, but to go beyond them? And much more...  

"Real knowledge of what I am saying must be earned, and lived, by each individual in his or her own way."
2012 The Return of Quetzalcoatl, p. 15  

Did Bohm integrate mythic and other levels of consciousness into his post scientific, rational thinking mind and way of being? Did his ability to entertain a degree of uncertainty separate him to such an extent from the majority of the scientific community that they simply did not understand, didnt get it, or didnt feel him? Does the fact that I have been born in this particular point in space and time somehow help perfectly prepare me for "getting" what Bohm was saying and working towards? Is that why I love dialogue so much? And, are we at a point in time, in history, where we have the chance to midwife a level of consciousness into collective being? And can we literally relax and be empowered because of the self-organizing, creative nature of reality?!  

"We conclude then, that the opposing and contradictory motions are the rule throughout the universe, and this is an essential aspect of the very mode of things."
The Essential David Bohm, p. 29

"I'm suggesting that there is the possibility for the transformation of the nature of consciousness, both individually and collectively, and that whether this can be solved culturally and socially depends on dialogue."
The Essential David Bohm, p. 338
This was in 1989, folks!  

Then I realized some pretty groovy music was on my yahoo! launchcast and it was New Orthophony by Stereolab.
Of course I had to look up orthophony to see if it meant anything to anyone, and found this:

Or·thoph·o·ny
n.

[Ortho- + Gr. fwnh` voice.]
The art of correct articulation; voice training.

Very curious! How pleasant. Correct articulation. How about just any articulation? So I spoke...then I just thought, how about just art? Creativity? Voice training?

I really don't know what it all means (and am content holding the uncertainty along with "what I know"), but it feels very good! It involves life and possibilities. So much fun!

I'll keep you posted, hehe.