Inquiring into trust

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I participate on an email list with people who I used to meet face to face for dialogue and inquiry once a week. The emails are sporadic and sometimes I throw in (my) $0.02; sometimes I don't. Most of the people on the list don't even know me because I have been gone for 9 months. Like a face to face dialogue, sometimes I only listen and sometimes words come up. Today words came and I thought I would share it with you. It will be a bit out of context, but they had been talking about trust.

Here are some ramblings:   This need to define and limit ourselves really cracks me up sometimes...and yeah I do it constantly. It is a good day when I can laugh at it. :)  

I have a trust that tells me everything is okay. That everything that can possibly happen is the way it is, and that is that.  I guess I have a trust that there isn't going to be a psychopath assault me when I walk with my headphones on in the morning to grab a donut on the way to work. I just notice everything, listening, and trust that my awareness will take in what happens. (Or is that ignorance or escaping?) I trust that all or most of the people I encounter will do certain things and behave certain ways (some of us are more flexible than others when people don't do these things - there is allowing or reacting). We have a trust that when we are driving 70 mph around a curve on a mountain that the semi truck next to us will maintain their velocity (or is that stupid? no going 90 is stupid, right!?).  That the bus driver isn't suicidal today and if he turns out to be that will be okay (yes I have thought about this!). We have a trust that the people in our lives won't suddenly forget who we are or just walk away and never come back. (When they fulfill our vision to a certain extent is that trust from them?) Or wait I guess these are just basic assumptions, maybe even common sense. What is common sense? (I mean, seriously, is it really that sensible?) So what is the difference between trust and assumptions? I like the question about what if trust is our fear disguised (or maybe I am asking that but really don't we all have these questions?) or is trust a matter of time? Can we question with a lightness, and open curiosity and see? If not, what is stopping us? Why do we avoid what we avoid? (Come on, everyone has something!) Can we allow that (avoiding - or whatever)? Might it loosen up if we did? Hmmm. These thoughts about trust make me think of faith (marty!) so maybe we'll question that next.   Can we have a trust that is open? That just trusts what is - not trust in a thing, person, or concept because what are those anyway?  This whole interweaving of apparent things in life seems delicate yet flexible.  

More thoughts: we like to have the choice that there exists something beyond our choices. I'm not saying there is or isn't but it is interesting to observe how we grasp. Is it beautiful? Can we allow it? Or will we judge and critique ourselves and our loved ones mercilessly?
Enough of the stream of whatever!

For some freakin' awesome music, go here and listen to Black Bear and I Believe in Immediacy. I heard this on the radio on Saturday and it is Lovely. http://www.myspace.com/blackbear    Have fun, kari

[PS - I am searching for images of Black Bears in their cinnamon phase and it is disturbing that I mostly find furs, dead Black Bears. :( ]

edit: corrected my typos and changed the image